#ideclare

I declare God’s incredible blessings over my life. I will see an explosion of god’s goodness, a sudden widespread increase. I will experience all of the surpassing greatness of God’s favor. It will elevate me to a level higher than I ever dreamed of. Explosive blessings are coming my way!

From Joel Osteen’s ” I Declare: 31 Promises to Speak Over Your Life” Book

The Look.

Picture this:

Jesus looks at the cross..

with the cross comes sweating blood, a beaten beyond recognition, a crown of thorns, people spitting on, nails in the hands, piercing in his side, name calling, dehydration, broken bones, ripped skin and so much more..

..and then looks at you..

Why would anyone choose that for me?

“You’re worth it,” He says.

That is Love.

*cue ugly thankful cry*

Need Healing? Look to Jesus!

Matthew 4:24 New International Version (NIV)

24 “News about him spread all over Syria, and people brought to him all who were ill with various diseases, those suffering severe pain, the demon-possessed, those having seizures, and the paralyzed; and he healed them.” 

ALL OF THEM.

That’s your Jesus. That is your God. Come confidently to Jesus, the Lord who heals you- Today and Always (Exodus 15:26)!

Thought Life.

Ever thought what you think about you bring about?

 

What’s on your mind?

Is it kind? Caring? Mean-spirited? Ugly? Affirming?
What’s on repeat?
Have you assessed your thought life? Do you believe there is a direct correlation between where you are mentally, emotionally, spiritually, financially or physically and your thought life?

Thoughts are the most private parts of this journey called life. No one else can know our thoughts unless we c make them known, so we tend to imagine that anything we think is safe, as long as it stays in our minds. But there is One who always knows what we are thinking; God.

Psalm 139 (MSG)
1-3 “God, investigate my life; get all the facts firsthand. I’m an open book to you; even from a distance, you know what I’m thinking. You know when I leave and when I get back; I’m never out of your sight. You know everything I’m going to say before I start the first sentence.”

I love this passage because it reminds me to check my thought life. My thoughts are not exclusive to me because HE knows firsthand what is really going on up in my head..

What a comfort because sometimes I need to check myself before I wreck myself… A poor thought life can lead to a poor mentally, emotionally, spiritually, financially or physically life… And our Creator wants the best for us in every area of our lives.

Take a moment and do a thought scan…

Ask the Lord to help you evaluate what you’re thinking about and ask Him to search you and help you think on the things which are true and remove all that are lies and deceit. The Lords thoughts are way better than ours. Trust and Believe!
Isaiah 55:8-9 says, “For My thoughts are not your thoughts, nor are your ways My ways,” declares the LORD. For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways And My thoughts than your thoughts.”

Dear Friends, Thank You.

I’m 36 today! Wanted to share some quick thoughts…

I am a reflector.. I love to look at the past and reflect on the things that have transpired over the course of a period of time..

10 yrs ago I was celebrating 26.

My grandfather had just pasted away from leukemia.

AND..

I just found out I was pregnant with Ava.

These events would end up being the catalyst God used to create massive change in my life (although that is not what it felt like in that moment).

My relationship with Christ was me doing a lot of talking and zero listening… but He never left and just kept on loving me… I think it’s interesting to look around and see people in my life on all these different journeys… sometimes it’s hard to be the Christian that says I didn’t always live very Christ-like.. some of my friends have relationships with God that are so intimate, so deep while others may not have much going on at all and there’s everything in between. I think that’s what makes God beautiful.. no matter where we are He loves us unconditionally and when I look back reflecting over the past 10 years I can see him weaving my life together in every single thread of every single day of my life…

Fast forward 9 years.. 2016 started under the valley.. unable to walk upright for 3 months.. waited 6 months to be diagnosed.. physical therapy for 8 months.. behavioral therapy for 15 months..
Specifically this exact time last year I was in a cage of fear. I was in complete darkness. I was afraid to leave the house.. eat, drink, sleep.. I was afraid to do anything; afraid to be alone. So many nights I felt so out of control.. my mind would just race and my heart would pound.. it was as if I was stuck in a maze I couldn’t get out of.. some nights would be so intense I would have my mom or daughter sleep with me because I thought for sure I was going to die… many nights I thought it would all go away if I weren’t here.

But the way God set my life up is he placed each and every one of you in my path.. every smile, laugh, word of encouragement.. all the hugs, conversations and prayers made a difference in my life.

Whether I’ve known you my whole life or just a day, I am eternally grateful for everything you all have poured into me and not just me but Ava as well.

As we get older it’s harder to cultivate meaningful relationships… it becomes harder to maintain relationships. We get so busy wrapped up in the busy.. our titles.. our social media that we may forget love is in the details of life.. so I encourage you in honor of this moment with me reach out to someone with a warm smile, a listening ear, a hug…

you can be the light in someone’s darkness.. XoXo

Holy Crap.

So I have recently been dealing with my crap…

Sounds super adult of me right?

But really there is a major difference between being AWARE of your crap and DEALING with your crap. Those are 2 very different things.

Obviously I knew I had some baggage that I was carrying, in some really nice luggage I might add, from childhood to just days ago. I would carry it from house to house and relationship to relationship… I would even on occasion look at the super nice luggage with crap in it while I was alone in my room…
BUT…
If you asked me to open the really nice luggage and take out the crap and deal with it…get rid of what I didn’t need *insert eye roll with hard lip smack* I would just dismiss you and keep on keeping on.
However, the luggage began to get heavy and I was really getting tired of carrying it. The crap I was carrying and pretending didn’t exist or didn’t have an effect on me was becoming a burden. The question I had to ask myself was this…
“How do I possibly deal with crap I think might kill me?”
I mean I lived thru it and I BARLEY made it out…I couldn’t possible go back again and relive this!
Or can I?
When I really thought about it, the beauty is found in these 2 truths:
1. I have already lived it and guess what…. I AM STILL HERE!
2. I was created by God and understood I was never meant to carry these heavy hurts.
*Cue Destiny’s Child Survivor*
If you woke up today and are reading this then guess what, You are a Survivor. No matter what has happened you are still here!! You may be thinking, yes but you don’t know what I’ve endured. You don’t see the aftermath of my pain. You’re right. I don’t. But I’d like to invite you to think differently for a moment. The fact that you are still here says to all the crap “I got a light and I’m gonna shine.” You have a choice. You can either move forward or wallow in the past.
The Bible says “We are God’s workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do” (Ephesians 2:10). So this means you have a purpose assigned by God completely unique to you! We have an irresistible future ahead of us.
I had to ask myself, “Can I fulfill God’s purpose in my life if I am constantly carrying these past mistakes, past hurts, bad attitudes, guilt, shame, doubt and sorrow?”
NO.
2 Corinthians 5:17 states: “Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come.” WHOA. When I read this I knew I had to adjust how I perceived life.
No matter what I had been thru, no matter what anyone had ever said about me or done to me, because I had accept Jesus Christ as my personal Savior I was new. The old was dead and gone and I was new! Freedom was mine in Christ! Whatever our spectrum – a broken and shameful past or one where we toed the straight line – we are all in need of a Savior.
I imagine my spiritual transformation much like the scene in Cinderella where the Fairy Godmother shows up and as Cinderella spins around, her rags are transformed into a beautiful ball gown. When I said Yes to Jesus He transformed me into a new creation and wiped the slate clean making me white as snow (Isaiah 1:18).
With this revelation I understood that all the old crap I was carrying was just taking up precious space in my heart and I needed to let it go. Letting it go meant I had to change my mind about how I saw myself and know the truth stated in Romans 8:28, “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.” The Good, the Bad and the Ugly will all work out for my good which means I do not have to carry the crap because it will be used for my benefit. It will be useful to my purpose.

I admit that while I am confident of my salvation, I still occasionally grieve over some of the choices I made, the scars I received, and the painful memories that I can’t erase. While we always live with the memories of our past, we do not need to live in bondage to it. Whatever kind of past you have come from, if you have been covered by the blood of Jesus, it is part of a one-of-a-kind redemptive story that is being woven through each of our lives. What a privilege to know that God will take every moment of our past, present, and future and use them for our good and his glory.